Where Was I?
October 5, 2015 § 20 Comments
Perhaps it was the busy, busy schedule of tasks, spooling off into infinity.
But no, that wasn’t it.
Perhaps it was the way that the turbulence of my mind kept spinning yarns of my own unworthiness.
No, not the problem. Not really.
Maybe it wasn’t me at all. It was all the others, the ones who let me down, who failed to give me what I deserved and desired. Their fault.
Seriously? That decrepit excuse again.
So what happened to me? Where did I go?
Not me, not them, not it.
The problem all along is the very idea of “problem.”
Here or there. Strong or weak. Loved or unloved.
What is the problem?
Resistance and struggle. The hopeless desire to somehow be- or to have been- something else, somewhere else, someone else.
Release yourself from the struggle.
And when you can’t, let that go too.
I am here, now. That’s all.
only here only now 
Hey Tom. It’s Sam, from Pawleys. U ran into my wife Cathy this morning. She told me about your blog. I have enjoyed what I have read so far. Thank u for sharing. Hope to see u soon
Sam,
Thanks for taking the time to read some of the posts here and leaving this kind message.
I’m motivated to write again- wanting to express as best I can the ways in which being beside the ocean and mountains help me.
Hope all is good with you.
Tom
Very thoughtful, thanks for sharing and inspiring.
Reading this post makes me smile (here, now). Your writing and message remain as true to form as ever. The final “That’s all”? What a sly, wise phrase. One we can toss off in the usual manner. Or one that weighs in with universal truth.
Sharon,
Thanks for the support. And yes, I meant the larger meaning in my concluding words. That is simply all. Just this moment.
I am happy to be writing again- and to feel reconnected with good folks like you.
Sending strong thoughts your way,
Tom
“Resistance and struggle. The hopeless desire to somehow be- or to have been- something else, somewhere else, someone else.
Release yourself from the struggle.
And when you can’t, let that go too.”
This says it all….to give up the struggle to be something, somewhere, or someone. Letting of our identity of who we think we are, or supposed to be, can be one of the hardest parts of the journey. BUT, when we enter no man’s land of no thing, we can at last have clarity to find our way home. I love your beautiful, wise soul. Glory be!!
Brenda,
I go way for nearly a year and come back and here you are. Such a great gift. You have always been a source of inspiration for me.
Feeling so much gratitude for this connection.
Tom
Good to see you back.
Feels right and good to be here.
Thanks.
Tom
Tony – so good to feel your energy again! “And when you can’t, let that go too.” Perfect.
Julianna,
I have been reading your posts recently and happy to see you again putting your beautiful thoughts out there.
Thanks for being here with me.
Tom
Right, the intertwining of paths is a beauty-filled thing…
Have missed you, Tom–welcome back….:-)
Lori,
Your welcome back is so kind- fills me with warmth and energy.
I’m happy to be writing here again and reconnecting.
Sending you thoughts of peace and joy.
Tom
Wonderful to see you and your honest, beautiful words no matter how much time passes. Wishing you peace and good health this autumn.
Laura,
So happy to see you here with me, again.
Your recent autumn posts resonated with me. Just stepped out on my porch. Crisp air and a deep breath, such a great balm.
Thank you.
Tom
Welcome back. I’ve missed you.
Thanks so much for taking the time to leave these kind words.
Tom
Good to see you back Thomas; I was wondering where you were. 😉
Hariod,
Thanks for the kind welcome back.
I visited again your site today. Filled with wisdom and warmth.
Happy for the connectedness.
Tom